Hey hey, lots of stuff happening in my life atm, Its crazy, miserable, hopefull and sad.
And allot of it is my doing! I am not happy about it, but i can't sit around blaming everyone or anything.
I remember a long lost Kimmy, someone who used to have everybody like her, she had lots of friends and a really busy life. She had life goals, was cheerful, fun to be around and just happy. She loved to make everyone happy and loved to just laugh and play all day.
Where has she gone? Should i put out a missing add, or maybe a picture on the back of a milk cartoon?
No more aims, no more lists, just trying to be me. The Kimmy i want to be. I know she is still in there under the misery, self pity and selfishness. Yuck! WHO would want to hang out or talk to miss misery all of the time. BLAH!
Just wanna be happy, play and live each day, be in the moment, not so disconnected and sad all of the time. Not just put on a front, take control of the way i feel and how i choose to act.
SO here's to happy times, sorting things and just living in the moment. It will take time and allot of effort,but i just have to do it otherwise i will suffocate.
Maybe to get me started i can just have a couple of bottles of wine each day, get rid of the nerves. Ohh that sounds good, wine makes me giggly and happy...............
hello my sweety, I think you need to change your time thing on your blog. I'm pretty sure this wasn't from yesterday arvo right?
ReplyDeleteand hello there funny kimmy!!!! a couple of bottles of wine? I like your style!!!
keep up the blogging - great job!!! LOVED IT! well, not the fact your sad, but the way you wrote it ;) xxoo