I really didn't have much self esteem and was worried about the little things. It really is amazing that people still continue to grow up even when they are an adult. I suppose we learn, achieve and become wiser about, life and love in general.
I found around 28 i was really lost, i think in all aspects of my life. Spiritually, emotionally and well always physically. I really didn't know who i was or what i wanted.
It wasn't until i was about to hit 30... i know 30 doesn't seem to old, but i was really scared of turning the BIG 30. When i finally hit it, or just before i seemed to have an awakening :)
I lost allot of weight, I was topping the scales of 76kg the Christmas of 2010 and when i went to Fiji for my 30th in 2011.
Jack was finishing C and K kindergarten. I had been the treasurer all year and made some great friends, become involved in the kindy allot. MY family day care business was going well, and my baby was about to start school. You could almost say i was at a new chapter in my life.
With jack starting school i didn't know what to do business/ job wise. I knew that i still loved working with children and families, i was always running playgroups and had enjoyed myself so much at the kindy.
soooo..... MY wonderful and ever supporting husband, suggested i start my own FDC scheme, as i was always whinging that the support and how things could be done so differently.
So i started Excellence In Care Family Day Care Scheme: www.eicfdc.com.au
This was a very very hard and stressful process! But like anything i love a challenge.
I was running the business by myself until I managed to get Anna in part time and Jodi working on the paperwork side of things. ( for free, how great are friends)!!
Jack was settling into school and we where starting to get over his medical issues.
Imogen was her beautiful little self as always.
Spiritually, i had my little sister Belinda, Aimee and Mark to thank. I started to go back to church ( haven't been in a long time, and actually sough out different religion's, i liked the sound of Buddhism). Being connected with God again, was really allot of what i had been missing!
So the next 2 -3 years rolled on :)
I was working long long hours, literally up at 3am and not going to bed until 11pm. The weight started to pile on because i was just grabbing and eating what i could. Paul was still working for Vlocker, over sea's, busy house hold running after kids and business etc.
The weight piled on but the sense of who i was and my self esteem remained in tact! So here i am now, a happy little ( well fat) vegemite, who believes in myself and is proud of who i am and what i have achieved.
Once i can get my never ending battle with weight and now my health issues sorted i 'should' be in my own life's lime light of where i want to be. A sense of grounding.
Well enough of my ramblings.... oh wait this is kimmy's ramblings spot.
Until next time adjure......
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