WOW, looking over my past posts, it is amazing what 4 years can do!
I really didn't have much self esteem and was worried about the little things. It really is amazing that people still continue to grow up even when they are an adult. I suppose we learn, achieve and become wiser about, life and love in general.

I found around 28 i was really lost, i think in all aspects of my life. Spiritually, emotionally and well always physically. I really didn't know who i was or what i wanted.

It wasn't until i was about to hit 30... i know 30 doesn't seem to old, but i was really scared of turning the BIG 30. When i finally hit it, or just before i seemed to have an awakening :)

I lost allot of weight, I was topping the scales of 76kg the Christmas of 2010 and when i went to Fiji for my 30th in 2011.
Jack was finishing C and K kindergarten. I had been the treasurer all year and made some great friends, become involved in the kindy allot. MY family day care business was going well, and my baby was about to start school. You could almost say i was at a new chapter in my life. 

With jack starting school i didn't know what to do business/ job wise. I knew that i still loved working with children and families, i was always running playgroups and had enjoyed myself so much at the kindy.
soooo..... MY wonderful and ever supporting husband, suggested i start my own FDC scheme, as i was always whinging that the support and how things could be done so differently. 

So i started Excellence In Care Family Day Care Scheme: www.eicfdc.com.au
This was a very very hard and stressful process! But like anything i love a challenge.
I was running the business by myself until I managed to get Anna in part time and Jodi working on the paperwork side of things. ( for free, how great are friends)!!

Jack was settling into school and we where starting to get over his medical issues.
Imogen was her beautiful little self as always.

Spiritually, i had my little sister Belinda, Aimee and Mark to thank. I started to go back to church ( haven't been in a long time, and actually sough out different religion's, i liked the sound of Buddhism). Being connected with God again, was really allot of what i had been missing! 

So the next 2 -3 years rolled on :)
I was working long long hours, literally up at 3am and not going to bed until 11pm. The weight started to pile on because i was just grabbing and eating what i could. Paul was still working for Vlocker, over sea's, busy house hold running after kids and business etc.

The weight piled on but the sense of who i was and my self esteem remained in tact! So here i am now, a happy little ( well fat) vegemite, who believes in myself and is proud of who i am and what i have achieved.
Once i can get my never ending battle with weight and now my health issues sorted i 'should' be in my own life's lime light of where i want to be. A sense of grounding.

Well enough of my ramblings.... oh wait this is kimmy's ramblings spot.
Until next time adjure......

I'm Back :)

I'm Back

It has been a LONGGGGGGGGGGG time since I have last blogged!

I have been meaning to post something new for a while :)

I am back on the weight loss journey. I say that it is going to be a permanent change, but we'll just see how that goes. How many times have I yo-yoed in my life.

Plan for the moment - Detox for a few weeks, get rid of the nasty toxins out of my body and hopefully this will kick start some weights loss. If I go on previous attempts, it works a treat.

You may ask why try the weight loss again: Medically I need to.

I am now 32 and boy oh boy I feel like a 59 year old!

Medical Issues:

Polysctic ovaries, at last count, 10 cysts. Both ovaries are full.

This means no regular periods, cramps, no possible change of having any more kids. In Tern caused bloating, fluid retention, hormones spikes, hard to lose weight etc. etc.

Polyps ( Cysts ) in my sinus cavities, central, left and right in my head

Recurring migraines and pressure on my nervous system and brain. I take 4-6 neurofen a day and at least once every two weeks I am incapacitated with a migraine.

Fix: No real long term fix, I will have to get my sinus cavity cleared out regularly ( apparently painful!)

Insulin Resistant: Which is when my body is unable to make enough insulin or their body does not respond properly to the insulin it does make. This causes a build-up of glucose in the blood (hyperglycaemia), which can lead to serious medical problems. I am at a high risk of type 2 diabetes. My mum, grandparents all have it. My niece has type 1.

Fix: Metformin ( in my case Diabex XR, I have been on and off this for the last 5 years.

Diabex XR belongs to a group of medicines called biguanides. It lowers high blood glucose levels by:

• improving your body's sensitivity to insulin and restoring the way it normally uses glucose

• reducing the amount of glucose your liver makes

• delaying the amount of glucose your intestine absorb

Current Haemoglobin 5.5 %, 37 mmol/mol

So hopefully the food I eat won't just be absorbed into fat cells, my body will actually use it.

Heart Palpation's/ Irregular heart beat: Self-explanatory.

Gilbert's disease

Vitamin D3 - very very low - have to take supplements ( 45 nmol/l) apparently 40-49 is a marginal deficiency

Dr was concerned about some mild lymphocytosis, I will do some more tests when I feel I have done a complete detox. ( may just be remanent of Glandular fever that never leaves the system).

Other blood test result: cholesterol a little high - 4.9mmol

iron okish - 5 umol (89)

Thyroid level 2.0, only gone up a little, was 1.3 in 03/06/05, 13/7/12. I have to be tested as my father had Thyroid cancer. ( Thyroid removed now).

Fluid, swelling in lower back.

2 discs calcium build up between.

So overall I am not a healthy chicken. Time to change that and hopefully be able to deal with stress in my daily job along with life.

Become fitter, healthier and happier.

I'll keep posting how i go on this long, hard, tiring, but worthwhile journey :)

 

Cheers Big Ears :)

Whats New?

What's new? Not much really!

We have been busy not with anything major just the usual life of a busy mum. School, playgroups, work, trying to do abit of study.

Although i will say we have been abit stressed out again with family issues, certain members of our extended family really need to become adults! But i wont get into that...... It can be a tad draining.

I have a few projects on the go at the moment. Going through all of our video tapes, putting them onto a hard drive so that we have some spare tapes to take away for xmas.
Also making scrapbooks for the kiddies, all of their past craft creations.
And my general scrapbooking, which i have let slip behind, but i am determined to get on top of it :)

Also i am starting to think about Christmas presents, what to buy etc and i had better go and start buying/ layby. I have decided i am not going to do Christmas cards this year, people are going to get a Christmas email. Otherwise it is too expensive and people most chuck them out anyway.

No major weigh loss to speak off, still gradual, i can feel it in my clothes. Kicking up the Low GI eating more this week and i have an exercise bike now, so while watching Oprah when the kids are asleep i will be working out on that in addition to my half an hour walk in the mornings. I am also thinking about incorporating some weight training, but slow and steady.

My next goal is not to have the muffin top! HHAHHAA I am glad i can laugh at myself now.

Until next time, adure!

Computers

I love having my lap top back in operation. Like today i can sit in the lounge room, watch the V8 race at bathurst and also check what is going on on the net. Paul fixed it, new keyboard as i spilt beer on my last one and it stopped working. I had to use a plug in one, big and bulky. My battery also didn't work, so i had to have it plugged into wherever i went. So new battery and new keyboard. I just need a some Ram to make it go faster.

We have also fixed the car, well Paul did :) Our sub tank was never working and Paul and my dad decided to fix it last Saturday! Wohoo it would have cost $1200 or more to get it fixed. Clever Paul brought the parts and spent a day on it and it only ended up costing us $400. Big saving and Paul thinks he is very clever now!

I haven't been on the computer that much as of late, as it is boring. facebook sucks, nothing ever exciting happening, or should i say no one messaging me :(
But its good i have been a bit of a social butterfly, playgroups nearly ever day of last week. Its good, but i also think i need to find a balance as i need some time at home through out the week. Otherwise things just don't get done, washing, general cleaning.
Don't get me wrong my house is generally very clean, things put away etc because i run a business from it and i have a certain standard that is has to be kept. But that is just the visual ares, lounge room, kitchen etc. the rest my room and the kids room tend to get to a point that you cant even walk in the door, clothes and just general stuff everywhere. I haven't cleaned the bathrooms for over a week and they need to be done. So i might get stuck into that this afternoon maybe, if i don't have another beer while watching the bathurst. GO FORD! Ok now i am rambling.

Count down is on to our holiday, 11 weeks until we go to 1770! Paul and i are working very hard at the moment. I have two new children starting care, and Paul is pretty much doing 7 days a week so we can save up and have a well deserved holiday.

So also 11 weeks to go until i loose about 20kg! 7 down so far, not that most people notice. I don't blame them as i have only gone down half a size. It is so so slow but i am getting there and i am so determined i am going to do it this time. yay me.

Going good

not much to blog... Things are going really well. I am in a great place, happy and content :)

I am glad i did my spring cleaning last week, as the house is all sorted and i have been able to concentrate on starting at the new scheme. Now just to get a couple more children in care and i will be happy!

I am off to coffs harbour for my 10 year high school reunion! Crazy and so exciting! I wont have Paul and the kids with me for the weekend. I will miss them heaps but it will be a good and much needed break away.

Weight loss is slow but steady, i am so impatient, i wish it could just fall off, but it didn't take a week to put on 30kg! so it wont take a week to take it off. By Christmas i should be down to my goal weight, at least that is my goal :)

I love my new table!

Cutest thing ever today, Imogen decideed to put up some signs: NO BOYS

Yes to mum and Dad :)

And the other one said Yes to Girls. I have no idea where she got this idea, but she did it and it is so funny!
I am so happy i have my 8 seater table now it is so nice to entertain and just hang out around :)
I also have some lovely lillies that i have had for about 2 weeks now, they are all flowering and look so great on my table and dining room!.

Feeling Pumped!

I just got off the treadmill and feel pumped, especially after listening to pink for 40 minutes as well! Those endorphins really do work and make you feel good!

Well not much to post as of late...... i am not miserable and whingey so nothing to complain or blog about... geeze my blog wont know what has hit it :)

I have been on my medication, Diabex XR for a couple of days now and well it is doing its job! I feel pretty stable and i am not having major highs and lows. We just had a huge weekend, with lots of peeps over etc, usually i would have been a mess, so worried about what everybody thought of the house and me. But i didn't, things went smoothly and it was great! Probably helped that i had a great friend here helping me and keeping me sane.

I am not sure if everyone knows much about PCOS, i will fill you in later. But one of my constant battles is loosing some weight, but if i just don't exercise for one day or have alcohol or eat a carb what has taken me two weeks to loose I will put back on in a day! And that is what happened over the weekend, i had lost three kgs and worked bloody hard to loose it! But as i was drinking etc over the weekend can you believe in 2 days i gained 4kg! CRAZY!
So that is why i am excited about upping my meds and staying on them, because it will help my body make the right amount of insulin and my body will actually absorb the sugars etc like it is supposed to! I will keep you updated on the progress.

Things on the home front are great! Miss I is on the mend, chest all clear, we will be going for an X-Ray next week to make sure. Mr J is so cute as ever and saying more and learning colors and numbers. My other half, is awesome, being sweet and we are being good friends at the moment as well as lovers :)

And me, i am me and i am happy to be me. I am starting to make some progress. I feel everyday i am happier about my life and who i am. I choose to be who i want and i am slowly starting to realise i am fun to hang around with, i do have things to offer friends and best of all i am not second guessing myself all of the time!

20 days until we go to the PINK concert!!!!!! WOHOOOOO ! I am so excited, now to find out what i want to wear! LOL

Anyway until next time, much love and cheerful thoughts!